I wrote a post back in April titled "Talking To Sarah" in which I mentioned talking to the people you like WITH the people you like. When I wrote that, I intentionally left it hanging like that because I didn't want to address the actual topic but I did want to throw the idea out there... Well, here I am addressing the topic.
Back in April, I liked a boy who I couldn't tell if he liked me back. I saw him every day and talked with him every day, and a couple of days before I created that post in April, I actually did talk with him about people I like. I left out names, but I was talking about him. I was talking about him to him without telling him who "he" was.
And then we were going to a school thing and he asked me about the idea of "us" and I went along with it. Because I had been thinking the same thing. In fact, when he asked me, I'd been thinking about how nice it would be if he asked me.
And then about a month later I broke up with him for no other reason than I was too stressed over our relationship, which wasn't even going anywhere much. Granted, this school year for me has been the most stressful I've ever had, but I don't know why I... I just did...
Relationships are hard. I don't know about you, but I think about them too much. My first relationship was so easy because we didn't really do anything. We hung out at school, went on movie dates, held hands... The simple stuff.
But my second relationship... I was always too busy to do any movie dates... He was too busy with a school project during school to hang out... We barely saw much of each other.
And I started stressing because I wasn't actually sure if I liked him anymore. I had liked him months before for sure, came extremely close to asking him out back then...
And he's a year below me. I know that shouldn't matter, but to me he's always gonna be my freshman friend.
I don't know.
Expectations for relationships are the weirdest things
